Merry Christmas ! - Singapore <3

Year End Holiday ! yeay ! <3

Happy Holiday ! ; )




and Merry Christmas ! ! !

again , again , and again !

bright like the new day a blank jet of sun covers you fresh and so innocent new to the world Everyone loves you now as the day grows brighter you grow wiser only enough to see the world in a new way day getting darker slower to move. It only seems like earlier that you helped others. The day is gone and so are you tomorrow brings new life just to lose one more last, i just want to be like other people.and please i just need a new life from everybody. thanks : )

Kau Dipaksa Aku Terpaksa

Hati siapakah mampu menahan rasa terkilan
Setelah percintaan dihujani halangan
Sia-sialah aku berkorban selama ini
Andai dirimu tak mampu aku miliki

Pernah jua ku terluka dihiris belati tajam
Walaupun rasa pedih masih mampu ku menahan
Tapi kini aku luka erti luka perasaan
Walaupun tak berdarah bisa buat aku gundah

Kutahu cintamu amat kuat untuk diri ini
Namun tak memberi erti
Jurang pemisah di antara kita
Makin hampir ketara

Bukan Cinta

Apakah yang kau harapkan dariku?
Jikaku tidak mencintaimu,
Maafkanlah aku kerna menhancurkan hatimu

Padamkan aku dari hidupmu
Tiada kebahagiaan dariku untukmu,
Ia hanya melukakan

Mengapa kau tidak putus untuk mengambil hatiku?
Memberikan cinta, kasih dan sayang padaku
Yang tidak tahu menghargai

Tiada cinta dariku untukmu
Hanya kebencian dalam hatiku
Untuk kau melupakan ku
Sedarlah dari mimpimu
Aku akan pergi meninggalkanmu….

i want to be strong ; )

I Surrender !


be strong and stronger ! ; )

*p/s : yanee , thanks alot ye. i appreciate it ! ;) i really miss you my friend. !

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aku tak tau nak start mcm mana . hati aku sakit . sakit sgt2 , bagai ditikam dgn pisau yg tajam . after class pkul 3 - 5 pm then lepak mkn dgn classmate and bincang pasal assgment then trus aku balik rumah . sebab nak catch Spa Q 2 kot . HAHAHA ! nak tgk Norish Karman . eh ! silap2 nak tgk Kenchana Dewi lah ! yg Shila oh lala tu ! hehe , tetba tangan gatai maka aku pun pgy lh on lappy aku nak online lh katanya . dgn pantas aku trus log in to myspace and facebook ! and tetba mood aku trus jd sedih . then aku pun pgy lh on ym jap . sebab nak tanya utk jawapan yg pasti. dlm hati aku mmg nak tanya je . tak ada niat nak tuduh2 pun . tp , manusia ni mmg . smua nye berlaku dluar jangkaan aku . and hari ni lah aku kehilangan seorg kawan yg begitu bermakna utk aku . tapi nak buat mcm mana lh kan . itu hak masing2 . kita tak bleh nak halang keputusan org lain . so aku pun jawab lah : im sorry . i janji dgn apa yg u nak ok? terus air mata aku menitis di atas keyboard lappy aku . entahlah . kenpa aku tetba begitu emotional . to you : sorry for my appear in your life . and being a bad friend in your life . i am so sorry . and itu lah ending for our friendship . lastly , u tu kena take care . selalu je sakit . jaga diri sediri lah eh . i hate the ending , seriously ! but it is good for us ! right ?


to love and to be loved

" it hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return , but what is more painful is to never have the courage to let that person know how you feel . dont go far looks , they can deceive , dont go for wealth , even the fades away , go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright . it takes only a minute to get a crush on someone , and a day to lose someone , but it takes a lifetime to forget somoene ! "

T A G ! again by tyra banks - jeff !

HAHAHA , actly dah lama si bodoh , gemok tu tag aku . tapi aku malas sgt nak layankn dia ! tak ada masa aku nak layan tag kau bodoh ! ni pun aku terpaksa reply tag kau ! baruah ! macam haram ! dengar sini , aku akan balas dgn sempurna !

1 ) Do you think you 're HOT ?
- damn you ! i am not ! HAHAHA , i love to be cool ! * suam - suam sejuk je ! ;p

2 ) Upload your favourite picture of you .

* p / s : my latest pic ! ; )

3 ) Why do you like that picture ?
- because aku nampak lain dalam picture itu ! sebab tu lh aku suka ! ; )

4 ) When was the last time you ate pizza?
- kau mmg bodoh jeff ! tanya soalan yang membunuh cell2 otak aku ! ( penat aku fikir ! ) it was a long long long time ago ! i can 't really remember it dear ! kalau tak silap aku , its on october kot . i had it with my family . if i am not mistaken lah . hehe ;p


5 ) The last song you listened to?
- You ' re still the one by Shania Twain
HAHAHA , jiwang karat !

6 ) What are you doing now besides this?
- nothing much lah bodoh ! soalan ni pun nak tanya ! * tgh ambik bau yg sedap . nana and panda tgh masak ! ( to panda and nana : kali ni korank btul2 berjaya ! )

7 ) What other name do you prefer besides yours?
- aku nak org pggl aku playdoh bila jumpa aku dmana2 sahaja ! ; D

This Christmas !

jingle bell , jingle bell , jingle bell , jingle all the way ... haihs , what should i plan for this coming Christmas ? all of the shopping complex are playing the Christmas songs . its make people feel very joyful . thoought that want to celebrate with my friend but suddently i received a text message -( ... u , 25 i nye kazen tunang ... ) so , i am thinking to have a trip to Singapore during this x' mas . hmm , this lately many things that happened in my personal life . and i learned how to compare the good and bad . its make me more matured . suddenly , i felt happy that i am already 19 ! hooray ! can watch porn videos legally ( HAHAHA ) , smoke legally and etc . i always tell myself that - be strong baby ! but i am always weak ! just wonder how could it be ? for this Christmas i want to pray to God for giving me a huge love and make me strong and stronger !






merry christmas ! ! ! ; )

los dan faun ! HAHAHA ! ; D

korank ! after all the party like there is no tomorrow . maka aku pun pergi tengok wayang bersama rakan2 ( shima , panda , nana ) aku . hehe . kali ni kitorg tengok cite los dan faun . HAHAHA , klakar dow cite tu ! korank pergi lah tengok ! ( even tajuk movie tu sounds like stupid , but fun ! ) kalau tak lawak , korank pukul je aku . ;p

Terlalu Istimewa ; )

Ku tatap gambar wajahmu
Sinar mata itu
Lirik senyumanmu
Pesona yang membelai
Wajahmu bercahaya
Memberi bahagia
Tiap yang memandang
Hati jadi salju

Kau terlalu istimewa
Kasih dan sayangmu terpancar
Seikhlas
Tiada batasan terus membara
Terkilan rasa jiwa
Inginku lihatmu dewasa
Apa daya
Tuhan lebih menyayangimu

Ku pasti kau berbahagia
Duduk di sampingNya
Mendengar cerita
Segala rahsia

Kau terlalu istimewa
Kasih dan sayangmu terpancar
Seikhlas
Tiada batasan terus membara
Terkilan rasa jiwa
Inginku lihatmu dewasa
Apa daya
Tuhan lebih menyayangimu

Tak tertanggung rindu
Mendengar suaramu
Tawa mengusik jiwa

Terpancar
Seikhlas
Tiada batasan terus membara
Terkilan rasa jiwa
Inginku lihatmu dewasa
Apa daya
Tuhan lebih menyayangimu

I Surrender

There's so much life I've left to live
And this fire's burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake the solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I'm in love with you

'Cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I know I can't survive
Another night away from you
You're the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there's no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I'll live again with love
And know they can't take that away from me
And they will see... yeah

I’d surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Every night's getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, baby
I'll swallow all my pride and I'll be alive
Can't you hear my call
I surrender

I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'll make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'll make you give them all to me
I'll hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I'll break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you

Right now
I give my life to live again
I'll break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you

give up

okay ! hmm , this is the first entry for this month . today i am sick again . ( panda said : kau ni ngada2 , padahal tak demam pun . ) seriously , i am sick today ! fever + flu + cough ! it is damn so fuckerina ! haha . whatever lah . my mind just keep thinking of something and someone . alot of things that i have to decide by myself . which one that i have to throw away and which one that i should handle it nicely . oh my God . it make my head become dizzy ! today i woke up at 2.30 pm . because all of the classes have been cancle. its damn so heaven ! but i just lying on my goofy bed and slept for the whole day . and tonight i got mid term exam . damn aku tak study lagi dow ! adeh ! ahhh ! whatever lah . back to the story , this lately , there is someone that have appear in life . and sometimes that person make me feel very happy . but sometimes make me feel very down . i dont know why . i get close with that person with an unbeliveable way . anyway , i think that i should erase that person from my life's wall . i know that i am a love sick puppy . and i know that both of us are impossible to be together . i doesnt want to be the 3rd person in your life . i dont know what will be happen if i keep getting close with you . only God knows ! today i have to decide for the ending . no more tears because of you after this . i surrender ! i cant handle it anymore . i know u do love your lover , so by here i wish you happy with your bitter half . p/s : u are always in my heart . you are the strawberry of my eye ! <3